Duck Invasion?

For those of you who have expressed your concern that the events of yesterday may cause me to stop blogging, I assure you, that won’t happen. Thank you for all of the encouragement and words of kindness, support and friendship.

Now, on with Duck Invasion?





Someone was sharing with me that there are a few souls at the new Camp Carbaway that are alarmed by the massive influx of Ducks into their presence. I certainly can’t speak for all the Ducks. I’m not the head Duck, the PR Duck, or even Duck Dutchess in waiting. But I do know many of the Ducks – including many of the Ducks now to be found at Camp.

Folks – we aren’t invading Camp. We’ve been there all along. We have read your posts. We may have even posted some ourselves. We have prayed for you in your illnesses and struggles. We have laughed with you when you tell jokes. AmyB used to beg me to come out at Camp. “Mrs. Leggs”, she would say, “come share this journey with me. We can talk about weight loss and families and all sorts of things.” And I always said no. I just didn’t believe it would be wise. I was concerned that it would make people feel uncomfortable or somehow betrayed. Then when someone else started demanding that people identify themselves, my little webbed feet anchored themselves into the silt at the bottom of the pond and I felt defiant. I hadn’t done anything to hurt any Camper. I hadn’t even blogged about Camp. Campers were never the enemy, though one was determined to continue to try to shoot us on site (pun intended). I also knew enough about that person to not believe her – she sounded like the old woman in the story of the Gingerbread House, enticing the children to come in.

When the forum change happened, AmyB asked me again if I would come over. I told her I would, but I want to be MomToEli now. Mrs. Leggs was being put into retirement. Just like you, many of us would like a place we can relax, talk about our weight loss journey, get support in that, and be free, even if only for a few minutes a day, of all the KK drama and investigation and lawsuit stuff. I hope you will take the time to get to know us. Overall, we really are a nice group of people – just like you.

This is an interesting week for me. I’m becoming a whole person again :)

Anyway, Campers, instead of an invasion, it is more like this ...

Who Am I?

I am someone who is incredibly blessed.

I have an incredible husband, who loves me, supports me and accepts me. He is supporting the decision I have made today - one that I had concluded I was going to have to make at some point.

I have incredible children. And grandchildren. They give so much meaning to my life.


I have incredible friends, both in real life and online. Online friends are a special breed of friends. It takes a whole lot of work to get beyond the surface when you may never have heard their voice. It takes effort to hear people's hearts and to be able to tell by reading between the lines when they hurt (we are usually much freer with sharing joy than pain). It takes work to learn to understand people's communication styles - to know when they are joking, or when they are serious; to know when they are speaking their mind or biting their tongues. But these friendships are so, so worth it. There are friends I've made online that I will drop whatever I'm doing if they just need to talk.

Thank you, my dear, dear friends, for keeping my confidence all this time and allowing me to decide how to handle this.

So, for all the rest of my readers, who may not venture in to the Fascination with Kimmer thread today - let me introduce myself. I am MomToEli.

Maybe now the "hints" will stop. Be happy with knowing who I am and leave the other bloggers alone. You are NOT the judge of whether or not we should be anonymous. You simply haven't a clue what is at stake for any one of us.

Somehow, though, I suspect you aren't done yet.

There is Change in the Wind

I am done with the Mayberryfan thing. Well, so long as she doesn't do any more of what she has been caught doing twice. But for now, I've said my peace. I've said what I think about the silence at LCF regarding her behavior. Thank you to the brave souls who had the courage to buck the masses over there and post openly. Don't misunderstand. I love most of the masses over there and would do just about anything for them. I just disagree with the concept that open challenges don't belong on that thread. In any event, I've been true to what I was called to do at the moment and I'm shifting my focus a bit.

The whole Heidi/Kimkins drama is ongoing, of course. But we could be here for years waiting for this to come to a resolution. Yes, I'll stay engaged in as much as I'll follow new trails where they lead. I'll dig and provide as John T requests. I'll keep my eyes wide open. I'm not abandoning the fight. I find myself, though, wishing that this blog were about more than just Heidi. I'm going to have to rewrite my bio. Make no mistake - I still am an ardent seeker of the truth. It is just a more basic Truth that I'm being drawn to seek and speak to.

I've really been thinking of the many people in this KK saga who are suffering. There are so many who have real illnesses. Many have real physical aliments. And many, many have emotional struggles related to eating and their weight. Are any of us really free from at least those emotional struggles?

I think about those moments when we feel all alone. Like no one in the world knows us, understands us, or even cares. We can all relate to that, but when we are in that moment we don't recognize that it is a common condition.

I'm in a Simon and Garfunkel sort of mood lately, so I'm going to treat you to another one of their songs. One that I hope is a sincere commitment to my friends in their times of darkness. I don't fancy myself as having any special powers to impart or anything like that. It is, though, one of my heart's desires to be consistently there for those who need me.

In my own mind's eye, I imagine Jesus Christ singing this song to me. He is, after all, the true Bridge Over Troubled Waters.